Saturday, July 21, 2012

The Dog Days of Summer

Thanks, Dad, for gently reminding me that I do have another dog.  I may have forgotten to mention this while I was eulogizing Winston in the past couple of posts.  It's just that Winston has always been at the forefront of our mind.  He was the first baby.  When we decided to adopt a second greyhound, we made sure Winston always knew he was the first.  We put on his collar first to go out for walks, gave him treats first, let him out the door first, just so he would know we weren't trying to replace him.


But Mugen is still here with us now, so I'm going to take this opportunity to tell you about this sweet, delightful, gallant and humble creature.


Mugen was born on February 27, 2005 and given the name Van's Blackmagic, son of Iruska Zederiah and Dalcash Chrisse, one of a litter of eight pups. Here's a link to his pedigree, if you're interested  http://www.greyhound-data.com/d?i=1290703.  He raced initially in West Memphis, Arkansas before being transferred to the Wheeling, West Virginia racetrack.  His records indicate that he was a decent racer.  You can check out his stats page if you want too http://www.greyhound-data.com/d?l=1290703&order=dateD&x=0.  They don't interest me so much - he will always be a champion to us!  His last race was the 22nd of April, 2009.  He must have been retired to the adoption kennel at Wheeling Downs, and then at some point a Steel City picked him out to rescue.  


Around this time, I was having serious baby urges, and NOT ready to actually have a baby.  We were a comfortable three-being family, me, Diego and Winston.  Maybe too comfortable.  Because at the ripe age of 31, my ovaries were starting to SCREAM.  (On a side note, I never actually believed in baby urges until I experienced them for myself.  I though people that had them were just weak.  Until I found myself gaping at pregnant women and cooing into every strange carriage or stroller I passed on the street.)  


Faced with the reality of my aging body, I decided I needed a new project, and in August 2009 we were financially comfortable enough to have a second dog.  A dog sounded like a much better idea than a baby, for sure.  Diego agreed, so he let me start fantasizing for real about another greyhound.  (Little did he know, I constantly stalk the Steel City available dogs website.  I almost always know who's available for adoption, and I dream sappy dreams about rescuing each one of them.)  Here's that website for you, just in case you're feeling sappy too:  http://www.steelcitygreyhounds.org/OurDogs.htm.


At that time, there were two greyhounds available at the Golden Bone, where they stay until their forever home finds them.  One was a compact, sweet, sassy little black girl named Curvaceous.  The other was a tall, lanky, goofy-looking tuxedo black male named Van (short for Van's Blackmagic).  We wrote Marci and told her we have a greyhound already and we'd like to start the process of getting another one.  After a few phone calls back and forth, we went to the Golden Bone to meet Curvy and Van.


That initial meeting process is always a little strange.  How do you know what a greyhound is going to be like when you get it home?  Let me tell you, the first meeting is always a little awkward.  You don't know what to expect.  We took Winston too, so that they could meet him.  Winston has never had a problem with other dogs, especially other greyhounds, so we didn't anticipate any personality issues, but we definitely had to put his preferences first above anything else.  He had been an only dog for 4 years at this point, and did not seem unhappy about it, so we didn't want to bring another dog into the house that would upset him.


As we expected, he had no problems with either of the dogs.  Curvy was affectionate with him, not overly so.  Van seemed to be more affectionate towards us, but certainly not hostile to Winston.  I had no idea how to choose just one dog.  In my mind, choosing one meant rejecting the other, and I began seriously considering adopting them both (which would have meant the loss of one husband, and almost certain neglect of the care of all three of them!).  My conscience was wracked with guilt at leaving either dog behind.


With Winston, the decision had been made for us.  He truly picked us out.  In Birmingham, the adoption kennel was associated directly with the racetrack, and there were probably 25 dogs in it.  At that time, we had no idea how we were going to pick one dog out of so many.  We walked into the kennel and all the dogs started barking at us.  All but one, a large fawn male whose cage was at the end, second row up, on the right.  This dog, Churchill, didn't even get up from laying down.  We walked slowly down the row of crates, stacked two high, on either side of the kennel wall, feeling totally overwhelmed and not a little bit discouraged.  When we reached Churchill's cage, he got up.  I stuck my fingers through the metal squares of his crate and he walked by my fingers, turning all the way around to allow my fingers to stroke up and down each side of him.  After that, he stayed standing, never taking his eyes off of us.  He never made a sound, he just followed us with his eyes wherever we went.  I can't explain to you how strange I feel telling this story because I almost don't believe it myself, but he knew we were there for him.  He waited patiently for us to figure it out, too.  Thank goodness it did not take us long.  We adopted him that day and took him home with us the next week.  We named him Winston, in tribute to his racing name, M's Churchill.


Anyhow, back to Mugen!  As Diego and I mulled over the decision of who would be our next greyhound companion, I searched the universe for clues, signs.  I hoped desperately for something like what happened with Winston, when he picked us out, but that didn't happen when we visited with Curvy and Van.  They were both really sweet, had different personalities, but nothing that had differentiated one over the other for us.  What was I going to do?  I wrote Marci.  I asked her if there was anything she knew about either of them, that would make one stand out as a better candidate for us to adopt.  Any help, whatsoever!!!


She wrote me back that afternoon.  She told me that same morning, another family had come to the Golden Bone and committed to taking Curvy home with them.  She said we could wait to see what hounds would be  next to be picked up from the racetrack, if we weren't sure about taking Van.  I wrote back immediately.  Wait?????  More choices????  Heck no.  Here was my sign from the universe.  Curvy was going to be taken care of, and Van was the one for us!


We committed to him that day and brought him home in mid-August 2009.  He was 4 1/2 years old.  He weighed 68 pounds.  You could see every bone in his pelvis, every spiky spinous process.  His back ribs stuck out so far you could wrap you thumb and forefinger all the way around them and they would touch with just two thin layers of skin in between.  Diego wanted to name him Mugen, which means "without boundaries" in Japanese.  It is the name of one of his favorite Japanimation characters.


Here's some pictures of Mugen's homecoming.  


Picking Mugen up with Uncle Dany at the Golden Bone Kennel


Car ride home - look at all those ribs!!!


Happy dog, about to find his forever home!


First order of business - marking his new territory!


Second order of business - getting up all those pesky stairs!


Third order of business - meeting new older brother!
When we first got Mugen, we thought he was smaller than Winston - turns out he just needed to fill out a bit.  


Fourth order of business - first walk with older brother.  Thank you Tio Dany!






 In the first month we had Mugen, he put on 8 pounds and his coat became shiny and soft.  He went from a somewhat scraggly and raggedy boy to quite a handsome thing!  At first he was very anxious.  Whenever we made any movement at all, he would get up off his pillow and start to cry - arooo-roo-roo!  He stuck to us like glue when we were home, but seemed to be fine during the day with Winston when we weren't.  Over the next several weeks, he learned how to climb the stairs on his own, he's now a pro!  He settled down.  He realized we weren't going anywhere.  He began to relax.  He figured out he was sticking around for a while.  


We had faith in him.  We knew what kind of dog he could be.  He learned his new name quickly and proved to be very smart, and very eager to please.  He came when we called him.  He never attempted to get on the couch or the bed.  He would do ANY thing for a treat.  


About a month after we brought Mugen home, I looked from him to Diego and said "Boy, it's nice to finally have a dog!"  The only personality characteristic he and Winston shared was their sweetness.  Apart from that, where Winston was stubborn, independent, rebellious and oblivious, Mugen was attached, loyal, obedient and strikingly perceptive.  And we wouldn't have had either of them any other way.  


We used to joke that Winston was some sort of extraterrestrial being that had come to Earth in greyhound form to do research.  We thought maybe we were his subjects (and also, utilitarianly, his livelihood!), and that he was probably sending back weekly or monthly reports to his people in some far away place.  He certainly never acted like a dog!  At best, he was more like some sort of big, deceptively lazy, incredibly fast cat.  We just assumed that's how all greyhounds were.  So Mugen was a surprise, a pleasant one of course.  We got a first-hand lesson in why people love ALL their babies, but in different ways.  


Since we let go of Winston three weeks ago, it has become CLEAR who was getting into the trash all that time.  (Not that we really had any doubts!  But it's funny to have had our suspicions confirmed.)  


We are so blessed to still have Mugen in our lives.  He is such a good, good dog.  Interestingly, his zodiac sign is the rooster.  According to Wikipedia, "Roosters are very loyal individuals. They dislike dishonesty and corruption of any sort. They are up front and honest people and expect those around them to be the same. Roosters are happiest when they are surrounded by others, at a party or just a social gathering."  They tend to be "acute, neat, meticulous, organized, self-assured, decisive, conservative, critical, perfectionist, alert, zealous, practical, scientific, and responsible."  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rooster_(zodiac)

I think that describes Mugen pretty well!  Since we let Winston go, we have had the opportunity to really enjoy Mugen as an only dog.  He is quieter than we remember.  He is so content just to be right next to us, or at the foot of our bed.  Every night when we get home, he crows "arooo-arooo-aroooo!", jumps around with a toy, then flops down on his bed with a heartfelt groan.  My sweet little rooster.  He blesses our life every day!  

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

The dragons in my life


So then, who, you might be asking, are the dragons in my life?  

Well, 2012 is a year of the dragon according to the Chinese calendar.  As you may well know, this calendar has a twelve year cycle of different animals.  Diego and I are both horses, having been born in 1978.  You probably are familiar with your own zodiac sign based on the year of your birth.  

Our baby will be a dragon, which is fitting, as Diego has always thought Dragon would be a great name for a son.  I mean, what kid wouldn't want to tell his parents, "I'm going to play with Dragon now!  Be home for dinner!"  Hence, we now refer to the baby bump as the dragon.  My sister added the middle name Fiesta because he's such a squirmer, as a throwback to his Latin roots, I guess.  Unfortunately, Dragon Fiesta has kind of a catchy ring to it, so it has really stuck, and I'm kind of afraid no matter what we end up naming the kid, what we are really gonna call him is...Dragon Fiesta.  At least until he's old enough to protest.  


In the Chinese tradition, dragons are thought to be very fortunate with very strong personalities.  They are characterized as "magnanimous, stately, vigorous, strong, self-assured, proud, noble, direct, dignified, eccentric, intellectual, fiery, passionate, decisive, pioneering, artistic, empathetic, generous, and loyal."  These qualities if untempered can also cause them to act "tactless, arrogant, imperious, tyrannical, demanding, intolerant, rebellious, dogmatic, violent, impetuous, and brash."  The colors associated with the dragon sign are red and violet and the associated stone is the bloodstone, a form of jade-like chalcedony with inclusions of iron oxide or red jasper.  (Thank you Wikipedia! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dragon_(zodiac) )


You may not know that there is a further layer of cycles based on the Taoist elemental sign (wu xing).  These signs are metal, water, wood, fire, and earth.  They represented the five known planets at the time (Mercury, Venus, Jupiter, Mars, Saturn, respectively).  The elements cycle on a ten year schedule alongside the zodiac.  Each element has Yin (odd/female/passive) and Yang (even/male/assertive) years, hence years ending in 0 are Yang metal, 1 Yin metal, 2 Yang water, and so on.   (Thanks again Wikipedia!! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chinese_astrology).  

So this dragon we are bringing into the world is a water dragon.  I am hoping that the water of his elemental sign will temper his zodiac personality qualities and facilitate a smooth, flowing, streamlike path in his world of fiery passion and unbridled emotion.  

We did not realize until Winston was leaving us that he was a dragon too.  Born twelve and a half years ago on January 10, 2000, he was a millenium pup, and a metal dragon (hmmmm....well, technically, for those of you zodiac nerds out there, the Chinese new year began February 5, 2000, but that doesn't fit with my story-telling purpose, so I'll ignore that for now).  Winston's dragon personality was tempered with steel, and we loved him for it.  He could be very sweet and affectionate, and had boundless patience with creatures which he understood to be more vulnerable than he.  I can recount numerous occasions of tiny chihuahuas or pugs humping his ankles in the park as he looked on impassively and babies crawling on top of him and sticking their fingers in his eyes while he would subtly move his head around with a look of martyrdom in his dark eyes.  He allowed us to manipulate him physically in almost any way we wanted to do, and we used to take advantage of this regularly on Halloween or for our numerous themed costume parties!


This is Winston dressed for business at our secs & execs costume party.



Rooting for Ecuador at cousin Hope and Dave's place during the World Cup 2006.  



He was content to play squaw to Diego's and my cowboy and cowgirl during Halloween 2007.


But he definitely had his own agenda.  He was stubborn and independent.  When he wanted to run, he ran.  When he wanted to come, he came (hardly ever!).  When he wanted to saunter and poke, he sauntered and poked.  When we tried to train him to sit, he hated it so much he stopped taking the treats we tried bribing him with.  We gave up.  And gave him treats anyway, just for being him.  

For my 34th birthday, just 4 days after we let go of Winston, my husband (to whom you'll hear me referring often as the best husband ever) got me the most special and thoughtful gift I've ever received.  It tops even the painting from the Thai elephant sanctuary that he got me three years ago. It is a pendant which combines a bloodstone and an amulet carved with two dragons.  It has been blessed by the Dalai Lama and the proceeds from the sale of the necklace will go to the aid of Tibetan refugees.  Could he possibly know me any better????  I have no idea how he'll top this one.  

Here are some pics of my birthday necklace:



Clearly hand-carved dragons in some sort of soapstone.  



Take note of the dragon-to-be, getting so big!

With this special gift, I can now take my dragons wherever I go, and hold them close to my heart all day long.  One dragon soul entering the universe, one exiting gracefully.  Now I have just one more way you'll always be with me, my Winston.  



My beautiful metal dragon in his summer outfit :^)

Sunday, July 1, 2012

I'm joining the blogging bandwagon...

A few of my friends have blogs that I follow, but what got me jumping on the bandwagon is my sister's blog, which she started about 3 months ago to celebrate her upcoming 30th birthday.  It is the coolest blog ever.  The way she writes it is so interesting!  Her blog website is 30by30in3.blogspot.com, and you should definitely check it out.

Okay, so she has some more formal training in writing than I do, but she has inspired me to keep notes on my life, create a record of what inspires and haunts me, and share it with, well, the world.  At least my close friends and family.

So for the past several weeks as I've been following her blog, I've been thinking, what should I blog about?  What could I possibly have to say that is interesting to anyone but me?  What central topic or theme unifies my life?  How do I define myself around a central item that will be interesting to anyone that wants to read it?  I have been feeling quite uninteresting lately.  Surgery residency is no Grey's anatomy, that's for sure.  And it takes up ALL of my time; whatever's left of the rest of my life is pretty standard.

I am currently 26 weeks pregnant, and for those of you who haven't (or won't) have the opportunity, being pregnant makes me feel like I am disappearing, becoming a vessel for the entry of another life into the world.  People pay more attention to you, but not because you are YOU, rather because you are participating in a new miracle.  You kind of feel like YOU are melting away, fading.  Your body takes over, using an ancient program that you had no idea was built into you.  Your definition of YOU starts becoming blurry.  You don't recognize yourself.  It's strange, and it contributes to the feeling of not having much to share.  I could blog about the pregnancy and the baby (how unique! I'm sure that's never been done before), but I'm already over halfway through this experience anyway....

Then Winston got sick last week.  Things got even more blurry as my self-definition took a crash dive....then came into sharp focus.

Winston is my first baby, my first "project".  When he was almost five, he retired from his career as a professional athlete.  Nine months later, we found him in a kennel for retired racers and he rescued us that very minute.  Now, I am not one of those people who believes in fate, destiny, or the like.  But this I know about Winston.  He picked us out.  He knew we were there for him, in a way I can't explain.  We didn't quite realize it at the time, but thankfully we picked up on a clue of it and decided to take him home with us.

Here's a photo of him towards the end.  He still would perk up those ears if you told him he was going to the PARK!





We had to let him go last Saturday, June 23rd as the throes of an illness we never recognized until it was way too late started to ravage his aging body.  I can't really write about that right now, I'm still processing it myself.  It was sudden and unexpected (although he was 12 and a half, I guess I shouldn't have been so blind-sided by it).  I truly felt like my world view was taking a gigantic paradigm shift.

How could there be a world with no Winston in it?  How was it possible that this being who graced our lives with his beautiful presence for the past 7+ years could simply cease to exist?  Over the past week, I have been struggling with such existential issues, and I don't really have a better answer now than I did last Saturday.  But, as we all know, time begins to soften the edges, the distractions of work, dentist appointments and yoga classes push the memories back, and each time they resurface they hurt a little bit less.

This distance has made it clear to me the topic about which I would center my blog.  I know Winston never left us.  When his spirit was released from his body last week to rejoin the energy of the universe, I told him he would always be with us, close in our hearts.  We will never truly let him go.  Today I begin this blog as a tribute to his memory.  


I am pledging today to run the Pittsburgh Marathon in 2013, in memory of Winston.  I will be raising money to support Steel City Greyhounds, the adoption group with which we have been affiliated while here in Pittsburgh.  In the blog I hope to chronicle my marathon training, tell you about Winston and his life with us, and further the cause of greyhound adoption.  This is something about which I AM truly passionate.  


AND, I hope to encourage YOU, my friends and family to RUN WITH ME and with Steel City!  In memory of Winston, who loved to run, a true gentleman with an independent spirit and a patience for things smaller and more vulnerable than himself that amazed us on a daily basis.  Start training NOW!  Help me help Steel City recover more and more retired racers and send them to soft, cushy couches all over the Three Rivers area!